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well damn, i’m frustrated

So it’s been a while! Two months of ‘while’. Here’s what’s happened in between:

– I did, in fact, complete the week of Paleo breakfasts challenge. Hooray!
– I even sustained it for I think another week after that. Hooray!
– Then life got tough/the holidays rolled around/life, oh wow, LIFE and I stopped the challenge and stopped monitoring my calories and basically just let myself go for a while. Booooo.
– I asked for (and received) a FitBit Flex for Christmas. Yay!
– I got back on the weight loss wagon, started tracking again
– I started eating my lunch at my desk and walking 3+ miles each day during my lunch, plus miles on the weekend with R

Here’s where I got serious. As of the 1st of the year, I decided to give melatonin another shot. And this time, I found the right dose – 2 mg a night (in 1 mg pills) taken an hour before bed has me totally ready to sleep by the time I should be. I was still getting anxiety about sleeping each night, so to address that, I’ve been measuring out 2 glasses of wine each night and accounting for them in my calories.

Well, I’ve been tracking for almost three weeks with this technique. Here’s the problem.


First of all, obviously weighing almost every day means that I’ll see the day to day fluxuations. But for the life of me, I can’t remember whether the 150 at the first day was something I was guessing before I set up my scale, or if I actually stepped on the scale for the first time and weighed 150. I’m leaning towards that being the case (which means then i’ve lost 4.4 pounds in 3 weeks – whoo!) but maybe I’m deluding myself to make myself feel better about eating less, drinking less, moving more, and losing literally no weight.

For me, who is finally giving this a solid shot including establishing an entirely new bedtime routine for myself to meet my goals and manage my stress levels, the chance that I’ve made no progress is very discouraging.

That being said, the only way to find out if it’s working is to keep doing it and see what happens. 4.4 pounds in 3 weeks would be super great if it were true, so I guess I will continue trucking on despite my frustration.

I’m also thinking about bringing back the daily eats – another goal of mine is to manage our food budget more wisely, so I’m planning on a lot more home-made food making its way to work. Later all!


good all day and an oopsie at night

Well, I’m sad to say that I cheated a bit last night. Not terrible – there were definitely less paleo choices I could have made! – but I’m kind of kicking myself today for so mindlessly munching on microwaved chicken nuggets (of all things!). Anyway, the breakdown of the day prior to that (obviously i didn’t photograph my shame – next time i should!):

Breakfast. I grabbed these frozen sausages without realizing they were two per serving instead of one. They’re tiny, they have soy protein (the quick ‘n’ eat ones i normally have do not have soy), and they’re not as good. :/ No thanks, Johnsonville, not again!

I threw some chicken thighs in enchilada sauce in the oven when I left for work, and came home for lunch to some beautifully cooked meat. I added a whole avocado on top for fiber, fat, and deliciousness.

Dinner was the leftover chicken thigh, avocado, cheese, tomato, and salsa verde on a bed of romaine. Pretty tasty and felt super light. Yay vitamin A!

I did have half a Coors Light and half an IPA after dinner. I had had a bad headache all day that multitudes of drugs didn’t cure, so I thought perhaps it was a lack-of-carbs-induced headache. No such luck and the beers definitely weren’t worth the calories or the deviation from paleo. :/ I have it again today so I’m thinking I may just be getting sick. I did spent 57 minutes on the elliptical for a whopping 500 calories so that at least offset my bad choices a bit.

Until tomorrow!

day 2 of keto

Well, day 2 of keto went exactly as I had planned. I was sad to see that I ended up gaining 0.2 pounds since yesterday, this morning, but that is objectively so little weight I won’t be letting it get me down. A quick rundown of the meals for the day –

“Scrambled” (microwaved) eggs and two pieces of bacon. Never again, using a microwave to scramble eggs is pretty gross. :/

Some more of that steak … stuff. It hasn’t improved with age. I’ll probably be throwing out the rest – too much gristle!

I roasted some frozen broccoli in the same pan I had previously used to cook bacon, and tossed the broccoli in the bacon fat after it warmed up. I also threw in two chopped garlic cloves. Much tastier than the protein!!

I got a little fancy with dinner (hahaha) by roasting a whole chicken, doing bacon-wrapped asparagus, and then made crescent rolls for the non-keto members of the household. Totally delicious. I had two more of the asparagus after this was shot!

As planned, I had a 24 ounce Coors Light as I wound down for bed. I honestly felt fantastic all day, but I went to the gym and spent an hour on the recumbent bike and the elliptical and it really pushed me over the edge into feeling gross again. :/ Even with the Coors, however, I stayed within my target carb range for the day!! Tonight, I plan on buying a six pack of Coors Light and tapering down to 12 ounces of Coors a night. After that… something carb free. 🙂 See you tomorrow!

10 pounds by Christmas

I’ve been on and off the wagon lately … I find myself taking pictures of my food, then running out of time to even upload them, much less organize them into a blog post. On the positive side, much of why I run out of time each evening is the fact that I’ve been trying to get in daily exercise. (we won’t talk about the much-needed cleaning that also takes up a bulk of my evenings)

I do find that I make better choices and have better results when I’m taking pictures and writing blog posts – so I will try to find a balance in my life that allows for it!

That being said, I was disappointed when I didn’t meet my goal of losing 5 pounds in the months of September and October. I need to have a sitdown with myself and rethink the use of, “Today is a new day,” to motivate myself to keep going – having that “reset” each day isn’t doing a lot for me, and although it may not have been mentally healthier to beat myself up over having a bad day, I’m starting to think that it might be more effective to hold myself more accountable and less “it’s okay to make mistakes.”

So my new goal is to lose 10 pounds by Christmas. I reset my goals in MFP to losing 1 pound a week, and was allotted 1270 calories per day because of that. Obviously, Christmas is a little less than 10 weeks away, but I feel like really pushing myself to get in exercise while eating more wholesomely and healthier can get me to 10 pounds in slightly fewer weeks than that.

One thing I’ve also been struggling with has been the type of exercise I do. I feel great when I do Turbo Jam (fat blaster and the 3T exercises make a great pair) but when I do elliptical, I get to watch Supernatural! It’s a hard choice – choosing the exercise that objectively feels like I’ve worked myself out harder, or staying on the elliptical for 80 minutes while I watch a couple of episodes. I’ve been leaning towards to elliptical as I work my way through season 3 of Supernatural on Netflix, but I am going to make more of an effort to get in Turbo Jam on the days when R doesn’t want to watch Supernatural with me. 😉

For the record, I weighed in at 148.6 this morning …. getting down to 138.6 would be amazing.

So that’s that!

fresh off of turbo jam and feeling motivated to post

Man! I just got done doing the Fat Burner video on Turbo Jam and I am all pumped up to post about my food hahaha. Seriously though, I need to ride this high out before I crash and zone out in front of the TV for the rest of the night.

I’m skipping yesterday’s post because honestly, I had a good day (calorie wise) that was completely unsatisfying to my taste buds, and after I hit “finished for the day” on MFP, I went out and had two crunchy tacos (WITH CHEESE) from Del Taco. I’ve been experimenting a bit with dairy products lately and have found a nice balance between “cheese quesadillas all day every day” and “no cheese forever.” Anyway. It was but a single day in the long fitness journey I am on, blah blah etc.

Breakfast today was a predictable as predictable can be: bagel thin, sausage, egg.


I tried Panera for the first time at lunch today, and found this lunch filling without being heavy and completely tasty all around. Half a chicken avocado salad, a bowl of low fat chicken noodle soup, and bread.

I’ve tried to make corn tortillas before, without much success, but tried again because I wanted tacos and have grown to loathe store-bought corn tortillas. This time was much more successful and my meal was incredibly filling for the amount of calories it was. The soup on the side was something I picked up at the farmer’s market – a vegan corn and chile chowder.


The soup brand is Souper Natural – if you’re in the Portland area, look them up! They apparently stock some items at New Seasons, and have stalls at most of the farmer’s markets. This soup was spicy and delicious and completely soy, dairy, and gluten free. (no, i’m not being paid to say this – it was just really good!)


That’s it for today! Tomorrow is another lift day, though I may put it off an extra day to sync up my schedule with R, who has already decided to lift on Friday. We’ll see! I took the day off of elliptical yesterday and stretched for about 20 minutes instead, and the incredible soreness in my legs went away today, so apparently that was a good choice.

two days in one

I ran out of time to post Sunday’s food, so have a two-in-one to make up for it.

R was feeling energized on Sunday, and cranked out a breakfast sandwich for me before I could think twice. The usual trappings, plus Daiya.


We went to the farmer’s market, and had some kettle corn as a snack. The bag promised that the whole thing was 170 calories (3 cups of popcorn) and I split it with three other people, so the calories should have been pretty negligible.

As promised, I made a Beef and Barley soup – the recipe I made was faithfully copied from Skinnytaste (a GREAT recipe resource, by the way), with the exception of added mushrooms (because i had them sitting around) and doubling the recipe. It turned out absolutely delicious, though I’ve found my stomach’s patience for red meat has greatly declined since I’ve switched to a primarily poultry-based diet. :/ It was still very very tasty, however.


Dinner was uninspired – a Wendy’s chicken sandwich and a side salad with the pomegranate dressing.

And on to yesterday … while at the farmer’s market, I picked up some pluots, and had one alongside my breakfast sandwich.


For lunch I had Chipotle, managing to choose very wisely despite not having calorie information in front of me – a bowl with chicken, rice, salsa, and avocado.

I roasted a chicken on a bed of chopped frozen broccoli, and made some quick couscous to go along with it. Measuring out 1/2 a cup of couscous turned out to be plenty when mixed in with the broccoli.


Today is a lift day and I’m honestly pretty excited about it. I’ve tried a few different stances for doing squats – the bar across the shoulders, dumbbells at each side, and finally just holding a 35 pound bench press weight against my chest – and found that the latter of the three is the best to avoid pinching a nerve in my neck that seems to be touchy. I find it easier to keep posture and get a great, deep squat each time I use the one weight, so I’m pretty excited to do some more squats tonight! (obligatory “hahaha, who am i?!” goes here)

on time this time

I actually remembered to do this on the day of consumption! Haha. It’s such a pain to do the post first thing in the morning, when I’m all groggy from lack of sleep, so fingers crossed I get into the habit of it. (the post from earlier today was made at work, oops)

Today was completely uninspired. The last turkey breakfast sausage patty, an egg, and an English muffin:


Sushi for lunch, with a mind for both cost and calories (except for the very lightly battered calamari, which i pretty much have to have each time i go):

And for dinner, two tostadas with beans, cheese, pork, guacamole, and Tapatio. We’ve been out of Tapatio for over a month and mmmmmmm was it good to have some again.


R had a huge calorie deficit today, and requested some quick Jiffy muffins. I had two.


I already factored a single NA beer into my night, and came out ~400 calories under net target following 40 minutes of elliptical and 20 minutes of strength training. 🙂

the great deficit debate (no, not THAT deficit)

I’ll start off with the food for yesterday … nothing too exciting. An English muffin with a sausage on it.


Another bowl of the pasta bake from the other day.


And for dinner, I cooked pork. It’s becoming a staple in our house – I get the “carnitas” cut of pork at Winco, which is a cheap cut of meat that lends itself well to being baked in the oven for hours. A large can of enchilada sauce poured over it, then covered in foil and baked for 4-8 hours (depending on when i start it) leave several meals’-worth of flavoured pork for consumption. This night, I didn’t have all the trappings for burritos, so I made brown rice and served it over that. I measured out 2/3 of a cup of brown rice, which was plenty.


Before bed, I wrestled with something that I generally find debatable – calorie deficit. Old habits tell me that I should always go for as large a deficit as possible. On the other hand, right now I have MFP set with a net calorie goal of 1200 calories, so as I sat there debating with myself, my net calories were slightly under 600. I ended up eating a fresco double decker taco from Taco Bell, which brought my net calories to a little over 800.


What do you think, readers? My actual calorie consumption was slightly over 1600 calories, and I honestly didn’t need to eat the taco – I was feeling snacky and knew I had the calorie allowance, but I honestly don’t know whether it’s necessary to truly get myself up to 1200 net calories or whether my focus should be on maintaining a large calorie deficit and keeping my actual calorie consumption around 1200.

My body is a little sore today – I did strength training (bench press, squats and more squats, and some calf work) and Turbo Jam Fat Blaster, and ended up walking for over 2 hours by the end of the day. Once I’m done here it’s time to hop on the elliptical!

not as good but still not bad

Yesterday was about self-restraint, as far as food consumption went, and I think I did fairly well. I started off with my usual breakfast sandwich.


I have a water bottle at work that I refill. It’s 24 ounces (or three cups), and it’s kind of mind-boggling that I should be drinking basically three full servings of it each day to meet my water requirements. I got through one and a half. 😛


I really wanted sushi for lunch. Luckily (kinda), many of the rolls that I would normally eat were not in circulation, so I only had 700 calories worth of sushi.


Spicy salmon and avocado roll.


Sockeye salmon nigiri.

Eel tempura roll.

And calamari, my favourite.

Being that lunch was so heavy, I tried to go light for dinner – half a bowl of Trader Joe’s vegetable green curry, with 3.5 ounces (pre-cooking) of chicken breast thrown in for a little less than 400 calories. It was okay, but not especially satisfying. :/


After dinner, I had a glass of beer, a shot of Rumplemintz, and a piece of chocolate. Luckily, I had exercised for an hour and burned 800 calories, so I still ended up under my calorie target and still lost weight – 154.8 this morning. Let’s keep going down!

it’s a bit early to celebrate …

… but I’m down a pound! 155.6 this morning. Yeah, yeah, weight loss is cumulative – I’m still happy to see the scale move.

I ran out of turkey sausage patties and replaced it on my breakfast sandwich with 2 weighed ounces of low sodium turkey breast. It actually saved me 60 calories, for a 270 calorie sandwich.


Normally, I get sugar free energy drinks to boost me through the day, but I didn’t have my second one yesterday and decided to try an Americano with two pumps of mocha and one pump of caramel. I forgot to say iced. :/ It was okay. 80 calories.


I had intended to have another salad and burrito for lunch, but R needed me to meet him downtown so we did that and, somewhat fittingly, ended up at Chipotle, where I had a burrito bowl (which is basically a burrito as a salad, haha). 575 calories – nowhere near as bad as I thought it would be when I was eating it.


The kitchen was still messy, so I made chicken breast cooked in salsa verde, then put them with a tablespoon of beans and half a serving of Daiya per tortilla. ~480 calories.


I ended up having an (unphotographed) square of 66 calorie chocolate after dinner, as well as a single shot (~100 calories) but still ended up under my calorie goal due to an intense hour of elliptical that burned 700 calories. Hooray!